NB: This is an old post from PS&OS - one of the only ones I have. It's tame, but its something.
We’ve all been that person lying awake thinking deeply about life. I am really well known for it.
Despite the usual antics of the weekend (I am pretty sure my blood is pure wine), I woke up this morning feeling more refreshed than normal. I was introduced to some legit chill music that set my mind into reeling, and I also had a deep, hungover feminist rant to the girl I’d been seeing (who had stayed the night) which really fuelled the fire.
In one of the songs playing, it says “Everybody wants to go to heaven, but you’ve got to die first”.
Heavy shit for a Sunday.
It sounds morbid, but it was true. Then I started thinking about how people look forward to heaven (or any after death thang you fancy) and they haven’t even lived their life yet.
I have a lot of beautiful people in my life doing their thang, some of them love a norm structure, some of them are like me and go for the extreme opposite. Either way, I believe that we should always push our comfort zones.
Evaluating the risk of things too much can be dangerous and it encourages you to stay put because it can be scary. But if you jump into something, chances are it’ll be an adventure – it might not work out. It doesn’t mean that you’ve failed, because you gave something a go.
Put it this way, do you want a beige cardboard life that is easy to assemble but lacks the lustre of adventure, snap decisions and beautiful memories? I sure as hell don’t.
I want snap trips overseas, or even just a squad ride to the nearest greasy fast food place. I want a lone retreat in a cabin surrounded by big beautiful trees. I want to get high and go rowing on a lake.
Push yourself. Make yourself experience new things. I know its terrifying because its not familiar, but that’s the beautiful thing about it. We all have dreams and things we want to do, but never feel like you have to be a certain way because its normal or ‘you’ve always been like that’.
Because imagine when you wake up in heaven (lets be real, I am going to hell), and reflect on your life. What does that look like? If its fucking boring, change some shit.
Now if you’d excuse me, I am going to live my life and continue eating my cold cheeseburger in bed with an exceptionally beautiful human.